im alive! ive sporadically been online here n there but never gave a reason past "musical, work, blah blah" on why I went ia so here's an explanation I started working a lot of hours; 4-10 multiple times a week, n I was always too tired to come on here after my shifts. neglected scratch once I got a phone (for those who dont know already, I got my first phone Feb 9 of this yr bc my parents are strict) n the motivation for this website went byebye I'm 17 now, my bday was yesterday lol n I got my hair colored straight black gettin the 4.0 gpa last semester was ruff but I did it those of you wondering abt the boy, there's nothin to rlly say. he quit his job. we don't talk. I'm getting over him, whether it hurts or not. I'm tired of waiting. physically n mentally ask me if I'm ok and I'll say no lol. my therapist left her job so I have to find another one LMAO and yesterday marked 7 years since I've seen my real mom so happy bday to me ig st dont delete this its fine no pitying me i hate that :sob: