You don't have to read it, just getting out my feelings.. I feel so overwhelmed. I just wana disappear. I don't feel like I'm good enough for anyone. I want to do my work, but it just feels like so much. And everyone calls me lazy, but I just don't have the motivation to do anything. It feels like I'm drowing in work, and I wanna do it. But it just feels like I can't, like I mentally cannot do it. I'm exhausted from trying so much, I just wanna give up. I wish I could just turn off the world. Just be alone, but if I'm alone, I'd still be lonely. But I don't deserve to be with anyone anyway. I'm pathetic, I literally can't do anything right, the amount of classes I'm failing right now, is astonishing. My parents tell me all the time, its easier to just do the work, and that you have to purposely try to fail. But it feel like they've been switched. I know I haven't done anything to be overwhelmed, but I am. It feels like I can't tell anyone anything. What's the point, I feel like giving up entirely. It would just be easier, if I disappear.
