hi... You've probably noticed that I've been increasingly absent. I mentioned earlier about losing a pet, which is why I've been away for a while. That, and a pile of health concerns for me and my family. There are so so so many factors at play here. To be honest, I've gradually lost interest in this site. I was at my peak in 2020 on this site because of the quarantine period. With everyone online, exploring sites and trying new activities to pass the time indoors, I found myself among the popular scratchers on this platform. Despite the drama, it was a really nice experience. However, I've come to terms with the reality that I won't reach that level of viewing again anytime soon, no matter how many projects I pump out. But that's not the whole story behind my lack of posts. Truth is, my motivation sucks. I leave a trail of unfinished projects and artwork because I struggle to keep my attention on anything for long. And my art style – it's a pain to work with for Scratch projects. I'm a perfectionist, so I obsess over every tiny detail. If it's not up to my standards, I get frustrated and chuck it. And then there's the drama. Lately, I've been bombarded with hate from different people on this site, to the extent that it's ruined my mental state, and compromised my reputation. It's ridiculous; people have gotten angry at me over the smallest of things. I have to log on here just to set the record straight and defend myself from being portrayed as some kind of monster who needs to be avoided at all costs. It's exhausting and frustrating that I even have to deal with it. I am more comfortable socializing on the blue app. It's simply more convenient for me to communicate there, especially since my gf and all my friends are there. If you'd like to reach out to me on there, just drop a comment below with "6".
Will I return to Scratch? Actually, I've never truly left. Scratch will always be a bookmark on my browser, whether I'm actively engaged or not. There'll be moments when I'm suddenly inspired to create a project, and I'll share it. However, I can't keep the level of activity I had during quarantine. My streak of frequent posts may be over, but I'm proud to have inspired others during my peak. It's fulfilling to know I've made a positive impact on this site, in whatever capacity. One more reason I've stuck around, despite it all, is because of the people who look up to me. Even now, I receive messages from others saying how much I inspire them, and there was a lot of excitement when I returned to this account. It's clear how much I've been missed and how much people want me to stick around. So, I'll keep this account up. Officially leaving Scratch isn't in my plans, even if I'm not posting much. I'll always be here to linger in the background, and sometimes make my presence known. I care about you all, and I'm sorry for the lack of activity. I hope you all are well and make sure to take care of yourselves. ♥
