i find myself questioning the choices i make sometimes, they're irrational and other times they stem from seemingly nothing when i'm outside of school i feel nervous and isolated i'm talking to the same three or so people every day i feel like i rely on them in order for me not to go insane and i find myself realising i'm doing this to myself i'm starting to get anxious it's not validation, i know i am abled, but... people? words? where do you find those. it's getting more and more difficult for me to express my feelings every day why? is what i'm asking myself, what am i doing for this to happen? what am i doing wrong? i know what i'm doing wrong, but how can i fix it? how can i be less... anxious? be less... quiet, online because in real life i am an absolute chatterbox what is the difference here? should i take a break? just, thoughts i have, that could be so easily fixed if i "really" know what the issue is
