Okay, so... a lot of you are probably (KEYWORD PROBABLY) wondering why I'm making a post like this. I've never really done or made anything exactly serious unless it's related to my lore or a story-driven project. Which brings us to something actually related to that. No, I'm not here to announce anything or advertise any kind of new project (at least not yet). I'm here to actually apologize to some people I may have caused trouble for. Now, before I even begin rambling on about useless nonsense that will probably mean nothing to those who aren't aware of what's really going on, I'm going to get one thing out of the way: I'm NOT making this post for attention-seeking or clout. I genuinely feel that I've done wrong and personally have been holding in this guilt and feelings for quite a long time. If I find any comments saying that I am or just being rude in general, your comment WILL BE REMOVED. It will be entirely without warning, too. The last thing I need in my moment of sorrow is for people to guilttrip me when I've already been fully aware of the impact my actions have had on the people I feel I've "wronged". Now, let us begin, shall we? So, basically the story starts a couple months ago when I was trying to get some people to view my lore and story-driven documents. One of those people I selected were @Pikaspark178. Saw her talking on one of my friend's profiles and I just figured she would be interested in reading it and I wanted to befriend her. Seemed like a cool person. So, I introduced myself and contacted her, she accepted, and started reading the document once I told her what it was and asked her if she'd like to try it. She accepted. Commonly, I asked her to write notes on each "case" she did in the document (a case is a level btw), but I guess when I saw they were undetailed and kind of random, I guess I just wanted her to be more descriptive in the notes because I wanted a better grasp on what she thought of the document so far. It was for proper feedback, but unfortunately, I got carried away in doing that and it got to a point where I demanded basically what was on the level of... highschool essays. And that stressed her out. What made it even worse was that I wanted her to do more and was completely oblivious to the fact she was getting stressed out. So we worked out another solution for her to just write comments on it in the threads I had been making. Her freetime got lessened eventually and soon enough I got desperate to find any solution for her to continue seeing my work. The reason I did this was because I wanted people to see the work and dedication I put into this project and see that I've made it for others to enjoy. However, that does NOT excuse the fact it's my own fault for the issues I caused. So..... I owe an apology to you. Majorly. I've.... been too pressuring and as much as both you or me try to deny it, I've definitely played a large part in creating that stress and I'm sorry. Like I say all the time, I don't want people getting stressed because of how demanding and obsessed I am with my lore and my desire for people to see my work. I've said it time and time again, but I considered most of the apologies I made just too ignorant because I only ended up repeating the same mistakes after each time I apologized. It's my own fault. I'm an ignorant person and I get overly excited about these sorts of things, just showing my creations and people liking them actually.... means a lot to me. But going forward I don't want to keep demanding that you constantly read it, because in the end, what am I accomplishing then? Putting more stress on you? Just adding more pressure to your already difficult situation? I'll try to prevent myself from repeating these mistakes going forward but just know there's no guarantee. Then there is also , who I had also asked to read my lore and add notes as they went along. They haven't really.... gotten very far, and I've been waiting and asking when they'd be able to see the full thing. Unfortunately, I see now that I've come across as annoying above anything else in doing that and have been ignorant and negligent of the fact that they have their own life and I can't just expect them to be able to read it consistently and all the time. So, I have to apologize for that as well. To me, it doesn't matter how many times you tell me you forgive me - I still feel guilt for it. In my eyes, it still doesn't make things right nor does it excuse my actions. I've already addressed multiple of my issues to them and I'm sure they're aware. I still indeed want them to see the story but perhaps now... just isn't a time to be interrupting their life. If they want to arrange something or just a certain time or talk with me, I'll ask them to chat with me here. That's.... really all I have to say. If this was a lot for you all to take in, I'm sorry. I am truly... sorry for all this.
the people mentioned.... ig. idk this is honestly not the project to be making a joke about
