if your gonna read it go ahead please don't be disrespectful, if you wanna give advice it'd be appreciated. i just don't know what to do anymore. i just wanna give up. sorry if you dont wanna see this. sorry if you dont care. sorry if this seems the same as the last thing I posted. but i just have to get it out. if your gonna comment please read it all before hand. tonight at dinner, the guy that was serving us, i guess you could say he was cute, so I made a joke about calling him cute, keep in mind that i have a boyfriend. who ive been with for 4 months now <3 i love him so much, idc if this sounds sappy :/ but I adore him, hes my everything, and I enjoy seeing him everyday at school, he hasn't been to school lately because he got a tooth pulled yesterday, which he had to leave school early for, so he didnt go to school today, and he probably won't go tomorrow either. but thats not the point, i feel guilty, i feel so bad, my parents had a whole talk with me about how I shouldn't limit myself to one guy, that i should try dating other people. i dont wanna think about that, I don't even want to imagine it, as of right now hes the only one for me, and it scares me because what if that crosses his mind. idc how stupid this sounds hes my first real boyfriend, first guy I went on a d@te with, first guy I ever k!ssed. my dad says were not even dating because he can never go anywhere, because for some reason his mom comes up with an excuse a lot of the time, and me being me I overthink, and think that she just doesnt like me. am i wrong for freaking out, i love him. a lot. more than i think ive ever felt about anyone. sorry for being sappy. but im just freaking out, even though i get what my parents are saying, im in highschool. I'm 17, i should live my life yada yada yada. i don't wanna break up with him just to get the high school experience. maybe I'm just over reacting.
