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I'm just tired of life right now.... Like is it really my fault..? When I gone to the doctors I was like 177 pounds... It made me feel like I was fat and I think it was 29.9... I only asked my mom if it was under weight or overweight. She said, "It was over weight" I didn't like the thought of me being overweight. my mom yelled at me in the car because I was being dramatic about the shots and I wasn't an "Big girl" I hated it, like I didn't like it. My friend started to ignore me for no reason, and I feel like he hates me. I want a scar like other. It looks cool. but my mom told me I was gonna Sh myself.... My mom told me to get better at writing and reading, plus math... Because I was horrible at it. She was only glad that I was doing well at other classes but math.... I blame people's death on myself if I loved them, like my grandpa... He died. And I blamed it on me for it... My stomach only hurt because I lacked food and I was stressed. And when it comes to Pe, I over eat food because I didn't wanna puke and I ended up doing it anyways. My teachers yelled at me for not charging my computers and complaining to them about getting headaches from perfumes that other kids spray. I feel like I got a therapist for nothing if I keep problems to myself to much.... I feel my parents would hate me if I told them I liked girls. Because I told I was trans and bisexual before and end up telling to be me and I was getting it from my cousin. I just want help from my parents, friend teacher, cousins, grandparents, etc. I lack food but oversleep on weekends... When my mom told me when I do my summer camp I might get thin because I was going to 'move' a lot.
