my life is a mess rn... /gen irl stuff is happening- skl stuff- like bro srs why tf do i have to have fudging friend problems- iv been having them for too long- the only reason im alive is bcz of aya, les, eve, atta, mav, aika, em, baldie no. 2, kea, lum, manda, nilli = <33 (theyre my closest friends on st :'3) otherwise i would be well off d34d rn /gen i cant handle this ok-? yall have proven to be fake- 6 fake online friends in 5 months- wowzers- srs, yall stop, im facing a lot rn ok..? im not a toy, so stop playing w/ my feelings to see how much i can take- ik yall r probably wondering why this is so short noticed or wtv- the thing is it jst is and yall gotta suck it up and deal w/ it (sry but iv been talking to myself like that after skl- :sob:) ask for socials iv got dc and rblx- st is becoming an addiction /gen and iv got to put a stop to it soon- my poor piano life is srs getting behind- im even questioning my existence nowdays- srs. what am i made for huh-? "for ik the plans u have for u," declares the lord "plans to prosper u and not to harm u, plans to give u a hope + a future" -jeremiah 29:11 but im srs feeling... idk.... aya's my comfort person rn- (sry yall but its only bcz ik her irl) w/o her i feel.. idk... I think i might have anxiety ngl- im being betrayed so hard rn irl + online istg... idk how my heart's handling this rn- im surprised it hasnt broken to pieces yet- i jst want 'this phase' to end /gen /srs im dying so hard on the inside rn.... jst remember real actual caring friends: ilysm/p <3 and im so glad i met u <33 fake friends: dont ask if ur a real or fake one- 'friends': dont yall start asking if ur real or fake- im jst not going to answer if u do-
.......................... i h8 my life rn.....
