This is a vent so if you don't want to hear it go ahead and leave. I am so tired. I feel like I mess up everyone and hurt them. I'm always the person who lets them vent and cry to me. Everytime I even get js a little mad they start crying about it and make me feel bad. Who's shoulder do I lean on? I am probably still here because I don't want my family and friends to hurt more but I hurt every day. I have also realized I cry everyday for big things or js little things can break me down. I honestly js really wish I could be on the honor roll like everyone else and my parents to not get mad to me about my grades. I wish people could try to understand me and stop calling me mean at school. I had a friend group at school I always sat with but then I had js realized the last week of school they didn't even LIKE me. Nor did they invite me to anything. Which they don't have to, but they left me and my BSF out. I feel like I have to be a leaning shoulder for my BSF and others and have to smile and laugh like what ppl say at school about me doesn't hurt me but it really does. I wish that ppl didn't hate me at my school. I had to find all the fakeness out on a Roblox game. I joined and realized that they were all hanging out without me and didn't even say or tell me anything. Then they said I do talk to much, even someone I didn't know in the roblox chat said that. Then later on I joined another so called friend and they said the others think I do too much. I have tried to be nice, to let others feel good but enough is enough. I have seen myself get more of an attitude since I have been trying to protect my feelings which makes people think Im more of a mean person. I don't have much friends except for one at school. I feel like I am js an awful person. I cry, and cry, and cry, but nobody seems to care. I don't tell anyone how I feel anymore, not even my parents or BSF because I don't want to be hurt. I feel like ppl will never understand or try to be better with me. My feelings get hurt so much and I am js so tired. This isn't even half of my problems, but Ill js end it here. Ok I sound like a dramatic person or drama queen and I don't want you to feel bad for me, so its ok.
