I'm trapped. In my own Mind. In my own soul. There's nothing I can do. I hate myself, I hate this world, But yet I love everything at the same time. I am failing my grades because one of my good friends moved without telling me. For a month(s) I haven't had a word from her, No note, No nothing. Ive been so worried that she has died due to her physical health( She doesn't have the greatest.) Because of this my parental figure caught on and began pushing me to tell the truth of all of this. I don't feel comfortable doing that. I never feel comfortable doing that because it always ends the same. An week to a month grounding and yelled at. Whenever I get grounded I get looked down upon in my home, making me feel hated, which makes me feel unsafe. I only feel safe in my own mind. Interacting with only myself. But I miss the outside world too. Why can't I feel safe in both? I've always had a fear of failing or of being yelled at or not accepted. This totally goes well with serious procrastination.
The reason I haven't been active much Pic from several months ago on that camping trip if anyone remembers that 50TH THING POSTED- WHA neat
