Bitter sweet ending

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As you all know i had left this account behind in the dust. I still loved scratch and the fun community it had held for me. I had made one other account before this and this really reminded me of it. I had lost my password and was forced to restart accounts. This really did remind me of that incident but this time it was different. I felt different. I had to restart all over again due to the supposed community that I loved so much. It really didn't feel... right. I eventually created a new account because of the harassment from everybody. I soon realized that, I truly do like everybody but honestly, it astounds me how much everybody is really just a pawn in one big game. How fast you all switch up just from one person simply just saying to. You all decided to hate on me because TGS just said "go bully this guy" and then went right back to normal after he said "Stop". Thats all it took. I used to think everybody was special. And that you all where different. But I was wrong. This community still holds a special place in my heart though, and I find myself often looking at it now, no different from what I remember. Wishing I could just re insert myself into it. My new account I do not wish to share, is doing well. I have gotten featured, gotten around 200 followers, but its just not fun. Nobody ever interacts with me. I post a project I have been working month on, one view. zero comments and no likes. I feel like its just a ghost town. All I want is just to have at least one person who cares, one person who really does enjoy my work. I often find myself wishing back this old community, only to remember the horrible acts you have all done. I always seem to go back to the same question. Was it all worth it? were all these years of hardship for nothing? I don't know. And its just not the same. I want so badly to just post a link to my new profile and scream its me its me! but I cant. I have lost faith in this community. All my real friends, they all just turned on me. My whole trust, community, friendships all gone. All because of one silly little event. You all really were like a family to me, I felt like I belonged. But now that I don't have that anymore I feel empty. I look at my 200 followers and think of them all as shells. Not one of them are like you guys. I work so hard for nothing. None of them even comment. Not one of them truly liked me. I want to go back and tell all of my real friend who I am but I cant. My whole current community, was it all earned? was it worth it? I feel like everything I have is just un earned. Exept for here. I am going to make one last attempt at putting myself back into the community, starting fresh.... One last run. Thank you for reading my whole rant, I just had to get all that off my chest.