hi I just feel like people should have a place where they can be heard and forgiven and cared about so yeah :) by the way, I want this to feel like a community, so if you're here and you see someone else struggling, you're also welcome to give them advice :) WARNING: DEPRESSING TOPICS ADDRESSED AHEAD I’ll start: I don’t know why, but sometimes I’m just doing normal things and I start thinking too much and over the period of a two minutes my whole world just turns gray. Like, everything literally has a gray tint and nothing can make me happy and I kinda just sit there and since I’m always smiling and hiding my feelings when it gets so bad that I just can’t smile people are always like “you should smile more” or “why aren’t you smiling?” I just feel like I always have to be happy and the pressure builds up and like twice I week I just becomes so unexplainably sad and crash and I become so tired and have no appetite or energy and just feel on the verge of tears all the time and sometimes I lie there and just can’t move and I want to move so bad but my body physically can’t and I think it’s metal paralysis or something and then I get this shiver kind of feeling and I can and no one understands and they all tell me to do things and I just become so irritable and and either eat too much or nothing, get no sleep or 13 hours, lie around and do nothing or rearrange my entire bedroom, ramble on for 10 minutes to someone or don’t talk at all (you get the point). I don’t know what this is, but I hate it. I just get this churning in my stomach and my life plays over everything bad and I feel like everyone is judging me and hates me and I hate the way I look the way I talk the way I act and everything about me and I just dig myself deeper and deeper into this hole of sadness and missing assignments and stress and anxiety and I don’t know *TAKES DEEP BREATH BECAUSE IT FELT GOOD TO WRITE ALL THAT* Now it’s your turn; write about anything that you’ve been bottling up, and let me know if you want advice or comfort or whatever; I’ll give it to you ♡
