(Vent! Didn’t expect a rant to become this-) I feel like I run away from a lot of things, like uhh my school things and my friends because I’m scared what I will do and for example like school since I ‘run away’ aka not do my school work, it piles up and pressure is put on me because the teachers don’t understand why I’m like this and are disappointed because I was never like this I used to be the good kid, comparable to the straight A kid (also my toxic friend) and now I’m just…nothing And there’s so much pressure it just pushes me away more and more and the cycle continues. And my parents are now disappointed and are probably also wondering the same things as my teachers. “Why is she like this?” “What happened?” They say “your sisters have been through this before, your not alone” have they ever fallen this back? This bad? Their all good students, hardworking, and I’m just lazy. I watch my sisters talk about their school life and I think “am I really not alone?” Their probably just lying to make me feel better. All lies. I overheard my dad say, “look at your child (me), she’s doing nothing” while I was on school break. And he’s probably right. I’m nothing, I’m stupid, I’m not good enough and I’ll probably never will be. And I want to call for help but I just can’t. Why am I like this? I don’t know.
… Im so cringe I’m tearing up as I write this, probably because I’m listening to my vent playlist.
