5/18: spent all night writing a letter for my sister, and putting together a birthday present for her. 5/19: It's my sisters birthday, my dad tries calling her no answer..tries calling my real mom no answer...tries calling my sister through out the day, still no answer... everyone is now on edge that day...we go to the church group (me,dad,brother) half way through i'm holding back tears and trying not to scream at everyone there...after the lesson I go to the bathroom. I break down and start crying my eyes out till I couldn't anymore.
background: I grew up in a @busive household on my mothers side. she use to sl@p me alot-, she has choked me once.she h@ted me, told me I was the result of her biggest mistake. treated me like sh-t my whole life. thre@ten too kick me out anytime I didn't do what she wanted. forced me onto birth control was going to force me to move schools to were I lived permanently at her apartment. I grew up at a young age being mental, emotional, and physical drained/ de@d. I wanted to k-ms since I was around 10. I wished every night that ti wouldn't wake up. I barely slept, stayed up most nights scared she was going to end me in my sleep. when I turned 14 I r@n away from her house. her parents found me half way to my dad's house. they brought me back. she cussed and yelled at me till everyone left. then told me my dad didn't want me to live with him. the next day I never went back to her house I stayed with my dad.
