This isn’t a project about quitting, im not that demotivated yet, rather this is me venting about stuff I feel like I need to get off my chest. 1. Projects I’m involved in getting canceled or stalled I feel like the kiss of doom to every project I get involved in. This happened a lot, long before I even joined the OSC. For projects made by me, it could just be demotivation or laziness, but when I get involved in someone else’s project, it’s like it ends up getting canceled for one reason or another. Every. Single. Time. I don’t know if it’s simply awful luck or if some strange force, but it happens a lot. I just hope this curse stops soon, because I’m somewhat involved in a project called Strategic Expanse(creator is @Huckleberry256) and it looks so promising, with Huckleberry seeming like he’s working hard on it every day. I’d hate to see it all crumble down to nothing, you know? 2. Desperation to be involved in major ROSS events Have you noticed how some of my recent projects are simply remixes of sign ups? That’s basically me being desperate to be involved in a ROSS or object show related event. The reason I’m doing this is that even though I’m very, very disappointed in the ROSS’s current state, I still want to be part of it, yet I feel so left out. Me signing up for these random projects is me wanting to be part of something, because it essentially keeps me from quitting, something I do NOT want to do. I barely even talk to my Scratch friends, so signing up for random stuff is also giving me an excuse to talk to new people for once. 3. The Future I don’t know about you, but for me, I’m starting high school in August. And that makes me torn on what I should do when I am a functioning adult. I have two possibilities for where I end up in life. Do I take the path where I become a game developer porting my creations to the PS5 or the Switch? Or do I end up making web cartoons for a living, making object shows of my own with my classmates and Scratch friends, or maybe even make a webtoon that isn’t even an object show at all? I’ve chosen an animation elective and a coding elective for the year, but i’m still STUCK. Both paths have their ups and downs, and both could make me known in a handful of communities, Yet I don’t know how to code. Or animate. I barely even know the Scratch language despite being in the site for 2 YEARS. 4. Problems regarding my faith in Jesus. If you haven’t known already, I’m a strong believer of Jesus. Yet, I’m starting to show disdain for how my fellow Christians believe, especially regarding LGBTQ topics(what a coincidence, June is right around the corner). I’m basically one of the few Christians in the world that does not get the homophobia my siblings in Christ show. At all. First of all, I respect the LGBTQ community. They went through heck and back so they can be socially acceptable. It reminds me of the Jews back in Exodus, escaping slavery and Egypt. Now, WHY would God be mad at you for simply finding a new way for you to be addressed by loved ones? It’s just pronouns, everyone uses pronouns. And pronouns like “they” are simply new ways for family members and loved ones to address someone. Saying it’s a sin for having something as simple as a new set of pronouns is like saying it’s a sin to have a nickname; it’s just stupid, like, stop it, get some help. As for the texts in the Bible that denounce homosexuality, the English bible is not the first iteration of the Bible. The earliest exact manuscripts of the Old Testament were in Greek, so it’s possible that all the anti-gay verses in the English Bible are either mistranslations or some homophobic pest in the 1400’s wanting to cause his fellow Christians to hate anyone that isn’t straight. Also, I feel like I am told by my Christian peers to hate on LGBT people and mask it as “love”. How is that love? That’s bigotry. Why would I want to be a bigot? A true Christian never shows bigotry. What makes it worse is that these “Christians” literally say that kids should never learn about LGBT or political stuff, yet they make their kids rap about their beliefs and post it online(It’s not even a joke, look it up on YT). I want to explain these beliefs to my family, but I’m dealing with conflict of how they would feel. Overall, this is simply me venting about stuff. I felt like I needed to say this to the world before it’s too late and I regret not doing it. Although, I am open to advice, so if you’re willing to give advice on what to do with my situation, please do, it’ll help a lot. And thank you for letting me vent to you.
Dos Orugitas: Sebastian Yatra: Encanto OST(listen to the whole ost btw it slaps)
