I'm so proud of how far you've come, one day you'll be able to get surgery if you want and start HRT if you chose, and change your name and gender on legal documents if you want, one day you'll be seen the way you want to. I promise. You'll only be able to do that if you push though. I'm so proud of you, stay safe.
Sorry if it takes me a bit to respond, I've been extremely busy with life and haven't had much time to log on scratch. Thank you for your patience.