Just a little arty dump here of a drawing I did yesterday because on the way to and from school I listen to a whole playlist and a lot of it inspires me to draw I just usually have 0 time to focus on fulfilling that, well… I got to have some time to do one of my pieces I wanted to draw out… and let me say, so much PEACE came out of this drawing. Long story short, after me and one of my friends reconnected over text back in 2022 and had finally met up again when we had gone to Six Flags with a group about maybe a few weeks after… I’d say maybe around a month later I told him my feelings and we started talking, lasting until our relationship was focused on our friendship more than relationship due to my anxiety and then him losing feelings in September, getting with someone in November. I was so mad and injured over things I felt he lied to me about with promises of us staying close and feeling like in some sense he “cheated”. I still hurt because more than anything I miss him and our friendship… and boy howdy… I still am going to be healing from this so likely… you’ll see more things related to him because well.. I wanna FEEL this out. The past two weeks I had break from college I finally could let out the pain and find some peace in why he won’t talk to me (he got a phone) and so… I leave it there. Yes, I feel some of these dying questions still… and yes, I’m going to let them appear. Funny enough, after I had drawn this and gone to bed.. I dreamed he had gone to our upcoming event and just treated me differently than how he used to and how I was dying for him to be part of our group and then his girlfriend came into view and he entirely ignored me in said dream.. so I will let that be my brain preparing me for reality during our event, if he comes. And that’s okay. I just miss my friend… and wish to hear from him.
