hiatus / leaving?

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So, the stuff down below is more for me than ya'll so u don't have to read down. I can name so many reasons im taking a rlly long hiatus--although idek if im gonna come back bc of all this stuff going on. Ik a lot of ppl will just say im 'overreacting' and stuff and that im just doing this to get attention-think what u want, i rlly couldn't care less. U know why? The aes comm is way too toxic, although many people are fighting against this point. Reason 1. As mentioned above, the aes comm is way too toxic now. Remember abt Liz and Lelani? When ppl talked abt smth different, other ppl woud say stuff like 'read the room' and '...r u being fr' like u rlly DON'T need to say that kinda stuff to ppl who are trying to lift the mood/change the topic. Also, WHY THE HECK R YA'LL MAKING JOKES ABT JESS? 'oh wow we have SUCH a good host' like BRUH she has a life and it's rlly hard for one person to be managing over 2000 people. U can't just blame her for everything that happens in the aes comm. 2. Boards + dni lists So, yeah, i've been checking the boards and I'm on so many dni lists. Yeppers i've remained anonymous, but i have been checking. The reasons im on them is stupid. Most of them are me trying to 'take down the aes comm on ST prf' ?! LIKE WHAT ?!! Basically, when the comments were shut off for a while, somebody, who i won't be naming (but u know who u are), said 'Please open the comments on the aes comm' and I was trying to tell them that they were shut for a reason and that's why ST was involved, but bc they were a pretty popular person everyone sided with them and thought i was trying to get the aes comm DELETED?! i don't get where ya'll get this from... 3. I have no motivation to make banners /projs I rlly don't, and there's the pressure of posting often enough and making sure the qquality of my projects still stays up there. I don't like my banners, and im rlly considering changing all of them. When ppl ask 'oh when's ur next proj coming out?' I'm happy they're waiting for me to post but i rlly have no time or motivation to post anymore and that's rlly putting a lot of pressure on me. 4. Ppl side with popular people So, I'd say this is a really big problem in the aes comm now. Popular ppl are popular bc of talent, personality and other things. That doesn't mean that they're more important just bc they have more follows and things like that, but ppl always side with them bc they don't want to get on the wrong side and ruin their reputation. People don't even argue for reasonable reasons now--it's as if the popular ppl can rlly do what they want and not worry if people don't agree / side with them. 5. Pressure for being an active enough scratcher I always have this weird feeling that if my latest activity is from >1 day ago, ppl will think i've gone ia and unfollow me. Sorry if that sounds greedy but I really think that's been happening-and it's rlly pressuring me to actually DO something instead of just adding projects to studios, loving projects and stuff like that. So yeah, don't you 'WOMP WOMP' me. There's this one person who's being so annoying. You know who you are. For (possibly) the last time, Kiki signing off.