--- hi guys! here's a little srp for the aftermath of otterstar's death-- in case you guys aren't up to date, belligerentstar did kill otto :( i'd highly encourage all of you to read the riverclan meeting roleplay, as it has a lot of effort put into it and so many cool characters and reactions involved! quick warning for this srp, it does include brief mentions of blood, indications of a sensory overload, and implied anxiety attack. while none of this is directly stated, if you aren't comfortable with it i recommend to read the blurb at the end. ty guys!! (also bc this a srp i wont add my usual "dont steal" thingy in the credits, but please dont steal :)) all of the art and writing is my own. bellgy also belongs to me) --- Belligerentstar’s bloodied paws squished against the muddied ground of Thunderclan’s dense forests, rainwater soaking their pelt. The noise drowned out his senses, disconnecting him from his body. It was far too loud but at the same time not loud enough—As if someone was whispering harshly into his ears but I wasn’t harsh enough to drown out his own thoughts. At least the sensation was better than watching the consequences of his mistakes, better than looking at the cat he had just left to die. Oh, what a bitter thought. He’d thought himself above killing, and definitely above letting a cat die alone. Yet here he was, having killed a cat with little motive other than anger and a long-forgotten promise. Despite his best efforts, there wasn’t enough excuse. Sure, he didn’t know that Otterstar only had one life. Sure, he only meant it as a warning. Sure, he didn’t intend to kill Otterstar at the start of their meeting. But it didn’t matter. He was the one who did the deed in the end, regardless. Clearflight was right. Even if she had been the one to call in the favor, she’d died trying to stop the inevitable. He’d planned on doing something regarding Riverclan’s leadership for a long time now, but this? Murder? It had lingered in the back of his mind, but he never intended to do such a thing. Yet here he was, blood on his claws, having fled from the crime scene. What would Maleficentstar think? His wonderful brother, who had yet to do something as cruel as Belligerent just had. Even so, Maleficent always had more vengeance in his blood than him. Would he stand by him, if it came to it? What about Agaricfrost? His best friend, or maybe even more than that. They’d spoken about this once, with the rest of the Devil’s Advocates. Would she support him, or be disappointed that he’d been so reckless and done something so foul? What about Bunnystar, Galerun, or Sequoiatower? Or Buttercuphaven or even Dovekit? What would this mean for the future of his family? Breathe. The panic coursing through his veins eased, sensibility slowly returning to him. Otterstar was likely dead by now. The probability that any cat would find him before he died was low. Even then, why would anyone believe him? It was fine. He would wash his paws in the mud and say he had just gotten stuck in the rain. The scent of Riverclan? Oh, he’d merely met a lost Riverclan cat who had gotten lost in the downpour. Why hadn’t he returned with prey? All the prey was hiding due to the weather. He would be fine. Nobody would suspect a thing such as murder, after all. Nobody needed to know. Nobody was going to know. Sadly enough, that was just another thing Belligerentstar had been wrong about that day. --- tl;dr - bellgy flees after killing otto, feeling like everything is too loud. he regrets it but knows its his fault, even if he didn't know that otto only had one life. he thinks about what his friends and family would think and what his past rolemodels would think. he convinces himself nobody would ever find out anyways, so nobody would ever need to know. :)) ---
