Introduction ➼ Hey guys, sorry I haven’t been active, 2024 has been a genuinely excruciating year. I wanted to make this project to discuss some things ❝Young bones groan and the rocks below say, ❛Throw your skinny body down, son ❜ ❞ i. the decay ❝Called to see if your back was still aligned ❞ All my life I’ve experienced random joint pains and aches, sometimes to the point of being unable to move. But in late 2022, the pains really ramped up. I was (and still am) in daily excruciating pain. After over a year of trying to ignore it and dismissal from my parents, I finally put my foot down and I went to my doctor about it. After months of blood tests, x-rays, and physio, I was diagnosed with joint hypermobility and I was found to have a curvy spine. My joint hypermobility makes me super flexible and most of my joints are double-jointed, but it makes it incredibly painful to exist. There’s a small ‘chance’ that it will go away (Something about me ‘growing so much recently’ which I haven’t), but I know it won’t. I struggle to walk most days (I use crutches), and strengthening hasn’t worked. But I’m managing. ii. the blight ❝Little old me in a big world, I wish I were a girl ❞ My gender dysphoria has been very up and down recently, some days I can wear dresses, other days I’ll cry if my shirt is too tight. iii. the rot ❝I’ll miss the fog through headlight wash ❞ The chronic pain hasn’t been the only health problem I’ve had recently, I’ve been dizzy, constantly tired, and constantly nauseous. I’m managing as well as I can, but I’m bedridden a lot of the time. I can’t eat, I can’t not eat, I can’t stand up, I can’t sit down, I’m just stuck between it all. I think I’ll make a project for my mental health too.
I used some song lyrics throughout the project, here are the credits in order Shakespeare’s Sister (The Smiths) Kissing the Lipless (The Shins) I/Me/Myself (Will Wood) Bloody Nose (Jack Conte)
