I am scared….it feels like I dont care about anything……..why am I still here….but in the back of my mind I died and I didn't even cry I am sick and tired of waiting for someone to ask if…..I am okay….or what I like to do……or…..what I love and what I care about…….If friends were money I would rather have less than more…..becuase….idk anymore I just really……I am scared of….idk….but just I can be myself around my cousin and maybe my grandma and maybe my aunt but I just dont know how to explain this it's just so hard to explain my feelings because……I dont even know what my feelings are I can feel one thing and feel another thing I just……dont know anymore, my life is…..idk weird maybe….but whatever….I just dont know how to feel some people ask me what I want or what I am looking for and I say I dont know because I just dont know and they are telling me that I should at least have an image in my head of what I am looking for and……..I dont and they are putting so much pressure on me…but it's whatever well at least I finally found something and I dont have to go through that pressure again….maybe…..why am I still here…….today as lunch my table got picked first and I got up first and walked all the way to the door for we can go outside and my friend tried cutting me and my other friend made her go back to her spot and she said “ Oh but I was there first and that was my spot” and I am like girl… you just tried cutting me and I was here first so like..??..... I dont know but ya whatever…. ( why does that last part feel so childish )
???...??? =3 ✧･ﾟ:* *:･ﾟ✧ I AM LEAVING SCHOOL IN A WEEK FINALLY!!!!!
