biggest trigger warning a trigger warning can give. context warning :: sweverlide (ifykyk), d3ath, pain, ED’s, etc. that girl didn’t want to d-e except she did. tape one. four years before. back to memory lane… two girls singing together camping and laughing faces sticky with s’mores and chocolate life when calories were only numbers tape two. one year before. a breath taken by a girl who feels whole again. she hugs her best friends, each with a different tug, but all that laments how much she loved them tape three. one month later. a lingering fear arising ironic, how it takes over her soul after the act that caused so much fear tape four. four years later. she never told anyone about the dream she had. the dream where everyone who left was sorry and enclosed her with their loving arms. touch, she learned to hate. her dreams were just dreams. tape five. six years later. girl writes this now, approaching the end. too bad so many souls like hers never get to grow up because of their mental health. Clean for the summer, what did she swap that bad habit for? a more deadly one. tubes get shoved down the throats of those who starve themselves. for anyone who has scars and cvts covering their bodies, they’re sent to the asylum where they put the crazy. tape six. lobotomies do not work. to scramble around one’s mind, when all they wanted was to be heard. asylums only work for keeping out the ugly from the pretty world that everyone hopes to see. we just need to be seen. tape seven. that girl didnt really want to d-e oh wait but she did. so she tried, and cleaned up the mess all by herself after a failed attempt.
