firstly how are we liking the rep aestheticcc I low key love it <333 let’s get started am I the only one who feels that they’re not enough? ppl r always like ‘omg ur doing it again, why can’t u change?’ like, help. I’ve been changing myself for YOU for the last eleven years. “omg you talk to much! do something else than go out with friends” ok, here’s me not talking to people that much anymore and trying to not get excited about topics that I like “are u kidding me? stop locking yourself in your room! Go out more” ok, here’s me trying to talk to people more and doing the opposite of what you’ve been asking me to do. “wth ur so skinny!” ok, here’s me trying to eat 3x more than I normally would until I throw up “why are you so rude? can’t you say something nice without being mean?” ok, here’s me stopping myself from standing up to bullies and making me feel so ******* vulnerable. “this is a joke, you’re being way too nice, protect yourself like an actual tough kid.” ok, here’s me trying to give bad ppl a taste of their own medicine and trying to leave me alone, all while trying to do what you told me 5 seconds ago. LIKE WHEN WILL I EVER BE ENOUGH FOR YOU. CAN YOU HELP ME FOR ONCE IN YOUR LIFE? I WOULD GLADLY INSULT YOU ON EVERYTHING YOU SCREWED UP ON BUT IM NOT. BECAUSE I ACTUALLY CARE ABOUT YOU AND YOUR MENTAL HEALTH. AS IF YOU EVER CARED ABOUT MINE, YOU BIT- *sighs* damn, im sorry you had to deal with that…I just had to get something off my chest. honestly, it seems impossible to be in the middle of everything. defensive, yet still nice. fit in shape. an introvert that can party and not stutter when talking to people. what do you honestly expect me to be? the perfect daughter/sister/friend/person? no. Because none of us are. And if you can’t accept me for who I AM and who I WANT to be, we’re done. im done changing my life FOR YOU. (Dear reader, ‘you’ is not you. It’s all those people who are saying that stuff to me, Ilysm <3)
