it was always him. the one i've loved since the start even if i didn't show it, the one who i was happy for no matter how much it hurt, the one who broke my heart without even realizing it, it was always him. canceling plans last minute, making me feel stupid for feeling the way i do, not even realizing how he really makes me feel, it was always him. leading me on when he knew i loved him, constantly draining me when i put in effort for him, not even noticing how much it pains me, it was always him.
