Hey, folks. How’s your pride month going? ..Mine could be better, honestly. You may have noticed my lack of activity on Scratch. I’ve.. had a lot going on. My cat was in the E.R. (he’s getting better now), I’ve been living in a hotel for a couple days (it’s temporary), and I have been working hard at my summer job. It’s reduced my time online, and maybe that’s a good thing. But.. I’ve been struggling with my identity now. I don’t know what I even am anymore. I’ve dived deep into gender identities and new sexualities and orientations- now I’m realizing that maybe lesbian doesn’t fit me. Maybe Cisgender doesn’t even fit me. I don’t know. But this discovery has taken a mental toll on me. The more I think the more I learn about how I feel about romance, how bad I just want a special someone to love, someone who understands me in a way where I don’t have to feel lonely where I’m upset. It hurts. A lot. I’ve even gotten jealous of my other friends for what they have. That’s.. really petty of me to even think about them like that. I just want to feel happier about myself. So.. this is my new journey. I don’t know if I’m a lesbian anymore. She/he pronouns don’t even seem to work. I’m going to try to figure myself out. To learn about how I feel about anyone I can. This is draining my motivation- but I want to at least try to find some ground of… *me* before I decide to leap back into comic making, or scratch. I might still be posting Willow Walkers but I won’t be as active as I would like. Does that make sense to you all? Probably not. Well, maybe. Who knows! I appreciate all of you for checking in, I really do. Each one of you means a lot right now but I’m not currently available, nor mentally there to interact with anyone else other than those I closely associate with. This is not permanent. It’s only until I manage to gain my social media battery back up, when art motivation returns or I can at least find my gender. Maybe I’ll post the new Quills ref soon? Maybe. I’ve been thinking about this for a while. So please don’t take offense if I don’t respond, or answer any questions. I’d list all the flags I used in this photo but honestly if someone else could do it that would be awesome because I’m not in the mood to look up the definitions again, lol. Cya soon, Quills (the lemon,, thing. ruler, mayhaps?)
