-!!TW!!- hello gays/ guys/ gay guys its quite surprising that I was posting a little more than usual lately, but I've actually been feeling a bit bad. as some of you might know, I went to a mental hospital a few weeks ago, and even though it did help me a bit, im still really depressed. it's gotten worse recently, and I found some "coping mechanisms", that are just to distract myself, be on my phone for hours, try to go out with some friends, etc. but its not healthy for me, and I cant even sleep at night. no seriously, its got to a point where I sleep 3-6 hours a day, and for a 12 year old thats pretty bad. I just feel so bad about myself, and I mean, my life was amazing, IS amazing, so I dont know why im like this. im a lying, jealous, horrible person. and I just end up feeling broken, and doing things to myself that are so bad I cant even say them on scratch, and even thinking some bad things. its not healthy for me. im trying to improve, trying to get better, but so far its not working. im on meds, and I go to therapy, and I hope I'll get better.
drawing by me, on kleki. I might take a small break from scratch, idk im working on getting my screen time lower as well (ITS AT 8 HOURS A DAY THAT IS NOT GOOD) I also noticed I wasn't eating enough (like one meal a day) and that is definitely bad..
