about once a year i get hit with a wave of scratch nostalgia and come back to this website for a bit. sometimes i make a new project or two, sometimes i just look back on old ones, and sometimes i even try coming back with a new account (which never works out too well). scratch took up a pretty significant amount of time in my childhood -- even before this account existed, but especially once it did. from the ages of 8 to 13 i spent nearly every moment of free time i had on here, either making my own projects or watching/playing the hundreds of millions of projects other people were making. i miss it sometimes. it's still a dream of mine to make a complete animated series one day. i don't know if i'll ever come up with the patience, determination, or talent to ever make that a reality, but that dream will always be there. apocalyptic, as flawed as it was, was the closest i've ever been to fulfilling that dream. i want to experience that again. i miss that feeling. apart from the projects, this website allowed me to meet so many kind and talented people who became my friends. years later, i've been able to get back into contact with a couple of them, but there's so many people who i haven't spoken to in years. i wish there was a way to know how they're doing. wherever you guys are in the world, i want to find you again. i miss you. will anyone see this project? it's been eight years now since apocalyptic was featured -- all of the kids who watched that project are grown up now, just like i am. is anyone left? or is the community i once fostered lost to time, spread out across the world, doing more important things with their lives than playing on a coding website for kids? am i writing to nobody? i created this account when i was in 5th grade; last month i finished my first year of college. there's no reason for me to be here still, pining after a lost childhood pastime i abandoned six years ago. and yet, somehow, i keep finding myself coming back here. again and again. as i said, nothing ever really comes of it -- even when i believe i'm making a return to scratch, that i'm committing to it this time, it never really happens. but i can't stop myself from coming back. maybe i don't miss scratch itself. maybe i just miss being a kid.
