tw : negative thoughts + death + @bus3 at the end - - - lost she'd been lost for days, just wandering. she was thirsty. so thirsty . . . their mouth felt like sandpaper. she didn't know where she was. it was only supposed to be a small adventure, only for a day or two but how long had she been out here for now? a week? a month? why hadn't someone come looking for them? itty? bee? em? anyone? this was as far as she could go. sure she had hunted, but that wasn't enough now she didn't even have the strength to do that was starclan coming for her? relief. sweet, sweet relief wait, no! she didn't want to go to starclan! panic flashed in her aqua eyes. '' i'm too young '' she whispered, their voice hoarse. this wasn't supposed to happen. she was supposed to live forever and have alot of friends. friends. she didn't have any of those really she could feel themselves shutting down. winn gasped and reached her mind to its limits to stay here she wanted friends so badly. to have someone to hold on to and see grow. family was great and all, but they were family, and family will always be your friend, even if your enemies. it's like a rule. she knew quite alot of cats but none of them held that status of best friend, or even friend. just . . . acquaintances but there was one cat. one cat who she knew she could trust with their life littlepaw their heart warmed with the thought as she stumbled. but this time she couldn't get up, so instead she just lay there on their side, breathing coming in short gasps as she clutched her thorn braclet, something she would keep forever, even when she died, whenever that may be. she hummed a soft melody, calm enclosing her like a soft hug. she was gonna die. here. alone. a tear trickled down their cheek. she was suprised there was even any water left in their body. she should probably try to lap it up, gain even a tiny bit of moisture, but she couldn't bring themselves to do it she closed her eyes and thought of all the family she knew about. em, itty, bee, marshmello, chi, wili, galeemprise, driftwoodscout, spindriftparable, and probably some others. the latter were only their cousins, and even that was a thin line, but they were their technical family, even if she never met them. '' i'll miss you guys so much '' she whispered painfully she hugged their bracelet close as she slowly felt the world slip away - - - i'm legit crying right now [ i'm in a bus right now and am getting some pretty strange looks :skull: ], like i've never had to write anything like this, and frankly, i've never wanted to. winnie was my dearest character, and probably always will be. i made a bit of a mistake when i made dee as a sign - up character and had literally no experience in a roleplay this huge and organized, but she's still my little dear, and she lives on in her son the closest character relationship that winn had was their brother littlepaw. he'll always be the closest cat to them, even if death separates them i'll miss them so much, but i can't keep up a secret account anymore that shows all my secrets that i've kept from my parents. two months ago was a very emotionally bad time for me were i myself mentally and physically and had bad thoughts about un!v!ng [ bad word detector said no ] myself so i really had no time for tfc then either i'll miss you guys so much </3 some of my most happy times were roleplaying here with winn and dee i a few messages for some really great people i've met in riverclan and that my two darlings have met too
@Rain-Whisper i know i've told you like a thousand times lol, but you inspired me so much to write longer responses. you are truly an amazing rper, and i really know that em will live a good full life in your hands. thank you so much for adopting winn, i'll always remember that. i hope you have a good life and follow your dreams <33 [ why does that sound so cringey to me :sob: ] if winn was here she'd tell em :: '' make sure you take care of yourself mama, sometimes its you that needs help, not the others. i'l miss you, and i'll watch over you forever from starclan '' @ShimmeringGal4xy ok, one, it took me like, two months to learn how your user was spelled xD , two, i'm so glad that winn was able to be the sister of an amazing rper. i know you'll lead itty on an amazing adventure <33 your a wonderful goofy person and a great rper! i wish i could've gotten to know you better and that we had more time to develop a bond between itty and winn, but i think they already have a pretty strong relationship <33 she'll miss him the most out of every cat for sure. i'm so glad i knew you <3 if winn was here she'd tell itty :: '' go make friends right now. thats an order from your older sister so you don't become emo and weird. i won't be there to make sure you do it but if you don't, when you join starclan with me i swear i will b3@t the crap out of you for not listening to me '' @pixzunami your such an amazing person _**_ i know you'll do good with nyx and give him a good life. i hope you do well <3 if dee was here she'd tell nyx :: '' i'm so proud of you my dear boy. i love you so much, and i know you'll be the best of shadowclan '' @yannasunset omg your such an amazing rper rahhhhh !!! i think mel was one of dee's closest friends, and she'll always remember that and look down on mel with love. i'm so glad that we got to rp so many times, i even remember that we started one with dee and midnightmystery hehe. your art has grown so much, keep it up !!!!! if dee was here she'd tell mel :: '' never let your blindness get in the way of your dreams. you'll always be a little kit to me, no matter what '' thats everyone i can think of off hand right now. thanks for giving me such a great time here <333 and of course, thanks to the whole of tfcrp to having such a great community! goodbye, and may we meet again <3
