fly peregrine, cardinalstar plot project

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☼ foreword ☼ after a whole long time of planning and sorting things out ( since march I believe ), here we are! while this plot mainly affects Cardinalstar, but RiverClan will feel the ripple of its affects within it's very foundation, so hopefully there will plenty of fun opportunities to see some character growth from other cats during this time as well <3 the roleplay will be technically starting on friday but feel free to ask questions about it :D • ───────────────── • ☼ plot explanation ☼ even a simple conversation can have dire consequences, and Cardinalstar, still trying to adjust to the political side of her new roles. the change just a simple word uttered from her mouth could bring, both positive and negative, or how her relationships with her friends from other clans begun to feel like they were drifting apart. losing contact with Quailhymn, Nimbusveil’s retirement as leader, she had been avoiding the loner territory lately, so she hadn't spoken to Ocean in quite a while. infamous for her lack of a concept of death, despite having had several near death experiences and seeing several cats die, Crescentsail, Flicktempest, Beastlyrose to name a few. she had never truly understood death, she got the basics of it, everyone died, and then they were just gone. unless of course they believed in an afterlife, then they’d live on in a starry haven. but now everything would come full circle, she herself would die for the first time. tensions were high between ThunderClan and RiverClan, anyone could tell that. so what would happen when a slightly tense discussion turned a little more than just sour? Marshmumble, a devoted ThunderClan warrior, something Cardinalstar could certainly respect, asides from him actively supporting a murderer. that's where her mistake cost her life, or one of them. a simple bite to the neck was what had taken her first life, only got the ThunderClan tom to leave her corpse on the border. thankfully her son Kingfisherflicker happened to have heard the commotion from the fight, bringing her back to camp as quickly as possible, hoping for some miracle to prevent her losing her first life. but it was too late, fae had already lost her first life at that point, but now she was safe amongst her clanmates. but how would the fun loving reckless molly process this? after recovering from her murder, Cardinalstar finds herself falling deeper and deeper into guilt, feeling as if fae was only to blame for the deaths and bloodshed that came with the possibility of war looming overhead. her actions, although fueled by good intentions, caused far more damage than she had perceived. blaming herself for the cause of the war, the efforts of every ounce of logic telling her it wasn't true went fruitless. she believes her loss of a life was only a part of her punishment, the next part would be to harm her clanmates. she couldn’t let that happen, she was fine with the stars punishing her, but they couldn’t do the same to those she had sworn to protect, those she had grown up with and considered her family. so she mustn’t allow that to happen. she just can’t. as more and more days of thinking, the more and more she begins to lose her sense of reality, trying to hide herself in this fantasy of where everything is fine, and sheltering those she love in a facade, trying to give hope to her clan that their under the order of a qualified and emotionally stable leader. as this facade of hers becomes her own verity, she begins to overwork faerself to extremes, trying her best to block out her internal fears… that she will be the reason for her clan's demise and she’ll be helpless to protect those she cares so deeply about. she would soon start experiencing dreams, or more accurately nightmares, gruesome nightmares of her fears coming true. striving to be the leader her clan needs, even if it means driving herself to extremities to accomplish this ( although she will never feel satisfied ). in the end she’ll eventually be seen very very little relaxing, always finding a way to work to keep her mind preoccupied, whether it be coming up with new strategies with her generals or just helping out wherever fae can. at that point she would despise being alone, as that would make her start to spiral into her extreme self-doubt, as with others, her facade would take over and blot out these panic inducing thoughts and haunting dreams. maybe something ( or someone ) will eventually change her mind and allow her to truly feel whole and safe once more, but theres no telling. ( continued down below <3 )