I vented on this acc because I knew no one would see this. I didn't want anyone to see this side of me. But I'm tired. And I don't stay tired for long. Tears don't change anything , action does. Sometimes if you want to change smth , you'll have to do it yourself , right ? The last few weeks have . been . EXHAUSTING . No one likes me ? ok . i'll make them like me . My parents think I'm a failure ? i'll work my butt off at the point i can't do it anymore . Fake friends ? I'll be faker . Bad grades ? I'll stay up studying even if I don't get a blink of sleep . I'm a people pleaser . I freak out at the thought of not being enough . I'll cry if I feel like I disappoint someone . embarrassment terrifies me . I stress even if there's nothing to stress about . that's who i am . I'm anxious . I've been struggling w depression and I was diagnosed w bipolar disorder . I'm determined . I'll keep trying , even if I can't see the light at the end of the tunnel yet . I'm kind . Friends and family always come first . I'm hard on myself . Everything's my fault ... even if it's not . I'm talented . I'm a level 3 gymnast and an award-winning cheerleader . I'm paranoid . I see things other ppl can't . And you know what ? I'm beautiful . everything about me . all my weaknesses , all my strengths . I love that about me . If you don't , who cares ? this is me .
