I’m not Ash, he’s just a freaking persona. Maybe we have the same friends and family and backstory but the one thing is that he’s a boy and I’m not, I’ll never be one. I remember pondering and I thought “if I died, could I be reborn as a guy”. If I took enough melatonin then my dream would’ve came true, but I’m a coward. A real one. And my friends would be so sad.