I don’t know how to start this to be quite honest. So first of all, I’d like to say sorry for my decreased activity recently. For maybe a month or two. I knew this was incoming…for quite awhile now but I never quite wanted to put it into writing. I’ve said this multiple times but scratch and TFCRP pretty much saved my life. I had two years of my life in the darkest place I’ve been yet. I was depressed from the remnants of COVID and also suddenly struggling with a heart condition which, I didn’t know at the time, could have resulted in my death at any moment through those two years. This was a lifeline to somewhere to belong. And Strongstar was the biggest part of that. I felt like I belonged in TFCRP and when I became afterlife admin helper, I also began to feel needed. Which is something I didn’t know I truly needed. I got Strongstar before my first procedure and I became admin helper before my second. I honestly didn’t know what normal life felt like but I remember trudging through the days in order to get home and get writing, get roleplaying. It was the one thing in life that for a while, was the only thing I enjoyed or could besides video games. But now my life has changed. I no longer have my heart condition (second procedure fixed it all, baby <3) and now I’m hitting all of the milestones I missed in those two years in one summer. I found a friend group of people who want to hang out all the time, I got my first job!, I got my driver’s license two days ago, I’m about to get the all clear from my cardiologist (after I have another heart monitor), and tomorrow, I start my first day of senior year. And then in October, I turn 18 years old. It’s a lot. I knew that eventually I would have to leave TFCRP but today is still not quite it. Today is simply a goodbye to two of the biggest things that happened to me here. Goodbye to Strongstar (and hello to Legendstar) and goodbye to me as Windclan’s admin. Thank you all for welcoming me here and I’m sorry I wasn’t better in many different ways. I will not be leaving TFCRP all together quite yet, I still have a RC character (Hydrangeapaw <3) but I’m afraid some of my big dreams for her may have to be cut a little shorter. I’m hoping my activity will improve when I no longer have such responsibility that I just feel overwhelming guilt when I log into chaos or scratch for not doing more or being better. I want to say thank you to everyone on the admin team! I can’t call everybody who impacted me out right now but I adore all of you and wish I could stay on just for y’all <3 But I want to give a special thank you to my Windclan team. To Ria, thank you so much for being the best admin helper a girl could ask for. I feel like we worked well together and all of your ideas are brilliant. You are so dedicated to Windclan and this team, I feel like I won a lottery! Azzy/Soul, we haven’t been able to really work together and I apologize for that. But I know you as a person for being one of Strongstar’s children and I know you will do great things. Especially with Ria’s help. I can already tell that you are shaping up to be great in this role and I can’t wait to see what you accomplish with a new, more motivated admin. Moe <3, just so you know I was terrified to pick a deputy. I asked so many people their opinions on how to do it, who I should pick etc. But I’m so glad I went with my gut. With every person I looked at, I kept coming back to you. You’ve been an amazing addition to the team and may I be the second person to congratulate you on Legendstar (I am also the first, Moe got a bit of a warning on that part). <3 To the medicine cat team (Hollow, Twilight, North), I also haven’t quite gotten to work with y’all as much as I would have liked but omg! Your ideas for taking medicine cats to new places and bigger, brighter, better things is so wonderful. I hardly had to even mention the topic of adding new things to make medicine cats a more fun interactive role and y’all jumped on it. So thank y’all <3
As a side note, for Ronnie’s end…I sadly have to prep for school tomorrow and cannot write a rp for him rn. But here’s what canonically happened to him- the outside stressors of the clan and the lockdown finally got to him, leading to his health slowly deteriorating and him not realizing that he was slowly losing his lives. Realizing he’s on his last life, he simply waits in the leaders den. Talks to his family and his clan (if they choose to visit) and comforts them because he knows the end is coming. And when it does, it is peaceful.
