goodbye, we were bigger than the whole sky <3

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hi so uh im leaving ive been thinking about leaving for months, and planned this project for weeks. but surprise surprise im leaving earlier than planned, thanks to a certain someone. iykyk. jess, if you're seeing this I hope you know you just ruined my life. thanks. me and my best friends were supposed to leave together, say our goodbyes and be happy. not like this. i lovelovelove scratch, since discovering the aesthetic community from school I grew to love it, and it helped me get through tough times. but tbh ive seriously grown out of it and I have no motivation to make banners or projects anymore, so whats the point? atp all that was holding me back was my friends, ive made so many that I love, but now most of them I can talk to on p1n or crd, so there's nothing to do here anymore. since my first "aes" account @-suqar_plum- , @stwrIiqht , here I am on this account with 300+ followers, I would've never dreamed of that many. tysm for the support, ilygsm. another reason im leaving is because of myself, and the people I surround myself with. tbh I worry so so much about what people who live miles away from me, people who I don't even know, people who ill probably never meet again, I care what these people think of me. its honestly so pathetic. for example there's this one person whos made it clear she doesn't like me on scr to our mutual friends but also on board, when she thought I wasn't there. "I don't like faieries!" "oh I don't like laylani anyways" its pathetic how someone behind a screen can hurt me, when I have bigger problems irl to worry about. the whole situation with jess has also been so stressful and too much for me, I try to be online to help but I cant bc of irl things and when im not I feel bad to my friends but when I am I js hate her sm. its really my fault for being sensitive, but I think the only way to really stop is to leave as clearly some people don't want me here I have no time for scratch anymore, im starting school again next week and I really want to get good marks. im also junior cheer captain this year, and if I really try hard I can be cheer captain for our team next year before going off to highschool, and I don't want to spoil my chances by talking to strangers on a kids coding website, because I already missed months worth of practice time after my injury. so yeah, that's another reason why im leaving ive been planning this with star and juliette for months, we wanted to leave together </3 I was on a small trip today and when I came back I didn't know how much jess had hurt them that they would want to leave so suddenly. it enrages me, but the best thing to do is leave. i cant deal with it anymore, so im leaving early. im sorry I couldn't say my last goodbyes, but I have no choice ill definitely be checking in from time to time, and in times like Christmas break and so ill probably be online for a few days, but for now, this is the end of my account.tysm for everyone who made this chapter great, and to my friends who don't have other ways of contact with me, my crd is faieries, p1n is laylani_elizabeth (im not super online on p1n) love, laylani