yeah, uh as the title suggests, im back. the reason I have a question mark is because I don't fully know if I'll be staying. recently, I've been dealing with a whole lot of stress and drama at school, since I'm officially a freshman in high school. I don't want to start venting and go super deep into what's happening, but here's the majority of it (I will put long version into the notes and credits, disclaimer): basically, I feel useless and unwanted by literally all of my friends and everyone at school and in life in general. the end. now to talk about the matter of owed art. I recently got into a predicament with my parents, and now my ipad is grounded from me yet again. but this time, I don't know when I'll get it back. I honestly might just drop everything and start from a clean slate, maybe make a new account... but I feel stupid not knowing what I'll do next. I honestly feel like I don't deserve the privilege of being in the art community, considering all my owed art and how long its been owed for. but yeah, I swear I will try my hardest to convince my parents that I should have my ipad back, I feel horrible for having owed art. I can't guarantee I'll be super active because I still have a lot of homework but hey, on the bright(ish) side, at least my birthday is exactly a month and a day away. so happy I feel so dry typing this stuff I wonder if you guys even remember me do you? I would totally understand if not, I would forget me too also fun fact but I'm in marching band this year (again) and I actually get to march on the field this time another fun fact: I still suck at art and my style is trash help I sound so dry and boring someone push me off a cliff I want to drown I love Glen Powell save a horse, ride a cowboy if ya feel it, chase it kids country Glen heals me I'm actually a pro storm chaser now pjo season 2 is coming out in 2025 i need to rewatch the httyd trilogy for the millionth time I also need to rewatch legally blonde and twisters and all of pjo season 1 I should totally audition for pjo seasn 3 if it gets renewed should I audition for a high school play? i wanna be an actress so badly I think I'm dying lmao
heres the actual vent, tbh I think I could go on for a while but I don't want to bore you all too much: I feel like I don't have anybody to talk to at school, I barely have any of my friends in my classes and even when I do get to see my friends, they always choose other people over me. Everyone always has at least one person they can go to and guarantee they'll talk to them, but nobody comes to me to talk. I'm left as a person in the background, waiting to be noticed and have someone approve. And then there's the matter that apparently everything is funnier when I don't say anything. Like my friends will be talking about something funny, I join in, and suddenly it's less funny or not funny at all. Am I just that awkward? That boring? That annoying? I just wish I had someone, anyone, that I could go up to and they would be happy to see me. I know that everyone has a special person waiting for them, but I feel like I'm excluded from that privilege. I feel as if I don't matter to anyone, and my friends only like me when I can do something useful. anyways my apologies for that stupid vent <3 and sorry if it doesn't rlly make sense
