ST ISTFG IF YOU TAKE THIS DOWN ILL QUIT. this applies to my irl and scratch life so if you want to hear this rant, I’m so sorry for you and I hope you’re alright. IRL = so basically, grade 6 isn’t as awesome as I planned it out to be. I’m now the back up friend in all my friend groups, no one cares about me until they need me for something. I just lost ALL elections I was nominated for, but I’m gr8ful I didn’t lose to a @-h*l3 like I did last year. Power really makes people change, my friends became beaches because of such. I can’t get into varsity due to health problems (Steve rogers, I’m starting to feel you on a personal level) and because I feel so unmotivated to do something with my life now. AND SCHOOL WORK. Bro, I was at choir practice for a holy mass, and when I came back after 2 hours all my papers were gone, so now I’m failing math, language, English, art and science. (ily my history teacher sm for making all the assessments online). I honestly can’t even remember my English homework but I can remember all the lyrics to All Too Well. I don’t know what’s wrong with me tbh…even my parents say I’m a disappointment. I’m a clutz. I can’t prioritize sh. I can know all this Taylor swift and pop culture stuff but can’t remember to shut off the air con when I’m done using my room. YALL. IT HASNT EVEN BEEN 3 WEEKS AND MY LIFE IS ALREAYD GOING DOWNHILL. im legit graduating this year. if I keep doing this I’m gonna quit st, pin, literally everything and try to pick up the pieces of my life. I want a friend. And a scratch friend isn’t gonna cut it. My “friends” right now are so disgusting. Like seriously? Drinking rubbing alcohol instead of water? Being proud of having dandruff? GROWING WORKS UNDER YOUR TABLE? Someone send help, actually; and the people that actually get me? They’re on the other side of the world.
Scratch= so this whole Jess thing is gonna drive me insane. Yes, you guys can feel bad for her if her grandma died, mine did too, I get where she’s coming from. Parents having a divorce, not sm, because divorce isn’t legal here..yes, she has had the tough life, and yes it’s probably hard for her. But are we gonna ignore the fact that she’s doing something illegal? I want to remind y’all that this summer, I told u guys that there was a flood DANGEROUSLY close to my area, no one gave a. Single. D. Jules and Star have had it hard too, trying to keep up with all the extra curriculum, being the best bnr makers alive, and also have time for themselves? Middle skl seems really hard guys :\ so why feel bad for jess and not everyone else?She scared me guys. She scared everyone. And the ppl that are defending her don’t even know most of our povs, I didn’t even have it the worst and I’m traumatized bc of her., Julia, fae, jules, star, the swiftie mag, they all did. They all tried helping her out just for her to backstab them. I’m sorry, but if you were in our shoes you’d do the same thing. Guys. I had the entirety of grade 5 hating on me and my friends. Sending d3 threats. My life is hard too guys, but when it comes to the criminal you all of a sudden feel bad? YES. THE COMMENTS ARE OVERWHELMING. BUT YK YOU CAN IGNORE THEM RIGHT? YOU CAN CLEAR UR NOTIFS AND MOVE ON. ik I said ‘I’m fine’ ‘I’m alright’. I lied guys. I always do. I have to fake having interests now. I never liked Laufey until the world influenced me. I never liked Taytay until everyone I loved said it was trending. Yes, I love their music, but now I’m getting hated for it? Tbh, lemme confess something to y’all. TW: mentions of s*1c (replace @ with 1) GUYS IM SERIOUS THERES A WHOLR TRIGGER WARNING PLS DONT IGNORE IT THUS GETS PERSONAL SO IF YOURE NOT A FAN OF D3 ID ADVICE U TO NKT CONTINUE PLS UR GONNA GET TRAUMATIZED I’m so done with life. maybe it’s an overkill, but no. I just wanna feel ok again. When I didn’t stress about getting follows, or being loved. I wanna be me again. When I didn't feel the need to cover up my body, take p1lls so I don't get acne, just be a kid and not have my childhood taken from me. I've been 18+ since I was 9. So before.ypu say i act like a kid, leave me alone. Skl is hard when all ypur papers were.stolen, all ypir friends ditched you, Ian's everyone has sent you death threats. cant deal with this sh anymore, and i mean it. O meam it so fckng much. I wanna be how i was before- Not the fake personality I put on display for everything and everyone. Yes, I might be dramatic. I’m well aware, but I’m fighting my own battles right now. I’m forced to speak in front of everyone, forced to know everything, forced to be this pretty girl bc my parents are, forved to have all the answers, forced to not forget things, am i ok? I have insecurities. Everyone at home thinks I’m faking pain. Faking my problems. Faking period cramps to skip classes, faking to like something to fit in, faking being this awesome innocent girl who’s never sworn or thought abt murder. Im confident that my own family thinks im a disgrace. Friends are so embarrassed when im with them cause im 'weird'. Im supposed ti win everything, if i dont, then why am i here? (I'm not gonna do it until secret wars comes out, I'm srrs..btw I don't actually think I'll ever do it, it's just...it's a just a thought that pops up often) AND MY REAL IRL FRIENDS? YEAH B14*H MY PARENTS CUT THEM OFF FROM ME. My family in general has a lot of health problems going on, and it's actually sad knowing that they might go. I care about them, really, but sometimes they get more than on my nerves. They cut them. They never want to listen to my side of the story because I made a mistake years ago. I'm silent. I'm gone to them. I'm just there when they want to flex that 'hey! My niece won a coding competition!' Or 'hey!! My daughter got honors!' LIKE B14C7 BR FR I MADE MY NAME. IM HERE RN BC OF MYSELF. When are they gonna take me seriously? They’ll take me seriously when I’m gone.
