over the course of my entire activity on scratch, the first half was actually me being passionate on what i am working on, but the later half was a bit painful. personally things aren't going well but i have had tried to keep my spirits up to continue becoming a beacon to the community i had built though i'll be honest, times change, the community changed, my mindset had change, and although you see me as this somewhat of a stern leader, its not. i tried keeping that look but it is hard to keep that up any longer because things are literally out of my control. some people say regardless of what i'm going through i have to strive for the community but trust me, its hard keeping up one. what i tried to keep on the community is its integrity or its code or whatever, and i have tried so little to stop them to the point that i learn to not touch in those matters. in other terms, i don't really care that much anymore on dealing with problems. and at this point, doing what i do best feels a bit more like a forced errand, and honestly, i'm not enjoying what i love here. there are a lot of good scratchers i've seen, heard, and interacted, but then again, those things might have contributed to my burnout. and honestly it is not helping. there are words i have said but scratch didn't save it so it might be a little complicated to understand. i'm not asking you to comfort me or anything, i just want to let you know how i feel about all this but where am i going from all this? well, after some thinking and advice, it's best to say i'm leaving the community some time this month. there's not much to say but i'll let you know who will run it when i leave.
