All of this pain is tearing me apart inside. I’m fighting against deep depression and a broken heart because I trusted someone, and they ended up doing things that I can’t even put into words. Mentally, I’m not okay at all. I have so many emotions bottled up that I cry myself to sleep every night. I’m so broken, inside and out. I don’t even understand how I ended up with someone like Demon. She seems so happy, and I know she deserves someone who isn’t as broken as I am. Demon is an amazing girlfriend who deserves the world, but I feel like I can’t give her that because I’m falling apart. The only thing keeping me going is my cat, lily . I’m breaking down so much, and I feel like I can’t do anything but sit back and watch myself fall apart over and over again. I keep saying I’m fine because my mom drilled into me that I shouldn’t show my weaknesses in front of others. I haven’t cried in front of anyone since none actually had to keep hiding it, and now I’m in 10th. That’s just a glimpse of what my life is like right now...
