i lost my og best friend. Not TCOV, i wont say names tho. It was all because i listened too- why are 2 of my friends beefing and why did i agree to being a messenger?! WHY AM I SO STUPID SOMETIMES?! HOW THE HELL COULD I NOT SEE THAT THIS WAS A BAD IDEA! all i did was listen..nothing else...i just- said the response and...its gone.. its my fault- its always my fault eh? why couldnt i just see the damn red flags coming from my old friend. I gave him many god damn chances. Maybe i should stop being so...gullible. its hard. really hard. No one deserves the kind of appreciation i hold for friends these days because they'll eventually just throw it away. its just life though. i guess this is good learning for me...i should look out for flags quickly.. 4 years of friendship, down the drain just like that.
im just....empty. im sorry guys..
