╔══════════ ✩✧↞【⸙】↠✧✩ ══════════╗ ↢ Hey! I've been on hiatus for over a month and I wanted to give some context as to why, but also, I have made a decision that I think would be important to share my reasonings for. Such announcement will be in the notes and credits, feel free to skip to there, there is a tldr at the very end of it as well. First, where I've been! Over the summer I decided to take a difficult class designed for a full year of school in just one month online. This was brutal. There was over 6-8 hours of work every day not including any breaks, and I was exhausted by the end of it. I did emerge from it with an A, which I'm quite proud of myself for, but I sacrificed a lot in order to do so. After that, I managed to finish the first draft of my novel, which was very very exciting too. It capped off at about 100,000 words, which was quite an achievement and I'm currently now revising! It has been taking up a lot of my attention, especially from TFCRP, because I realized that why I was so pushy with plots is because I just needed another place to vent my ideas and still turn them into a great story. After I released steam with my personal project, pressure was taken off of my TFCRP characters to be constantly involved in giant plots (probably for everyone else's good as well) since I literally decided to sit down and write a book instead lol. This year I'm now taking a lot of college classes, to the point where technically I'm almost considered a full-time college student despite getting to it way way earlier than most. This actually hasn't been too bad of a workload, but still takes up my time and attention regardless. I'm putting a lot of effort into my academics, and my free time is pretty much just dedicated to my hobbies and interests so that I can keep up my mental health. Now here's where it gets a little tricky. Since I've been putting my ideas and creativity to other uses, and what free time I do have is dedicated to self-care, I've had little time and motivation for TFCRP. I've been reading messages every day, but I didn't have the energy to reply or do anything at the moment. I've been in the community for a couple years now and I've considered the possibility that maybe I'm just losing the same interest that I had before.
That brings us to the main reason for this project. I've decided to step down as an Afterlife Admin Helper. I'm super grateful for the time and opportunity that I had on the team, and I absolutely adore the TFCRP community for what it has become and grown to be. This decision has been a long time coming and has been on my mind for a good while now, but it was only recently that I've finalized my decision. Earlier this month, I had the wonderful experience of having a (false) ip ban message display every time I tried to log into Scratch. Great. /sarc This was pretty distressing, especially in the beginning where I had no idea what was going on, and I even started to coordinate with one of my best friends to send a message explaining what happened to me and what would happen with my characters. During that time, I had a good 24 hours to really reflect on my time on Scratch and what it meant to me. When I mulled over the thought that I'd have to send a stepping down message as admin helper, I realized that I was actually feeling /relieved/ thinking about it. That was a pretty clear moment to me that being an admin helper wasn't bringing me the joy and excitement that it did before, to the point that my immediate reaction to losing it was to be relieved. While it was just a weird error message, and I was not, in fact, ip banned (thank goodness) it did help me to identify and process my feelings and move along my decision. Lately, I've been feeling like I've been too inactive to really do a good job in my role-- and I've already had a really good run! Frankly, it would be good for the team to have another fresh face too. To clarify, I will still be remaining in TFCRP and neither of my characters are going anywhere soon. While I may decide to take a step back and be a little less active, ultimately, I won't be leaving for a long while. Currently, I am still pretty demotivated and busy, so I can't guarantee returning to roleplaying soon either, but I plan to eventually get back to it :) .....................................TLDR:...................................... - Stepping down as Afterlife Admin Helper - Busy with classes - Working on personal projects - Feeling demotivated for roleplaying - Thinking of taking a little step back from TFCRP. Not leaving, just being slightly less active overall. ↣ ╚══════════ ✩✧↞【⸙】↠✧✩ ══════════╝
