I feel like pulling out my hair and banging my head against the wall repeatedly till it bleeds. I can't take this anymore I'm so TIRED OF FEELING THIS WAY. I try so hard to keep my cool, holding it together, but no matter what I do the thoughts will keep coming back...I can't control what I think. No one can! They will assume that Everything will get better but As always, it don't care about me. No one does. They just want to pity me. I'm so done with life I HATE IT. I just hope that one day It will finally be over. If not that then I will have to move to another solution...That either me or no one else will like. But not like they care- They just want to pity me just cause I need it. They don't mean a single thing. And I know they don't. It's a whole cycle for me.
ST please don't take this down :< Ignore the recorded audio please-