Sooo. I've been on "hiatus" for a long time now. I was planning on just leaving Scratch silently, deleting my account without saying a word. But I felt I wasn't being fair, and that I owed my followers some sort of explanation. I first joined Scratch in an attempt to stay in a friend's life... Long story. I found that it had more to it, and became... Addicted. I'm not even kidding. I loved sharing my art, for one. Also, the amount of people who didn't mind if I vented and people I could relate to without taking the similarities too far. But I always felt wrong. I was revealing information about me that I would only tell trusted people irl. I usually wait quite a while before telling somebody that I'm autistic. On st, it's right there on my profile, for everyone to see. I was presenting myself to an agree that I did NOT feel comfortable with... And yet, I did it anyway. I've never told my parents about ST. Being active caused me to constantly lie to them. I've been caught going on websites before, and I cannot forget the hurt and betrayal in my parent's faces. I love them so much... I can't do this to them anymore. I wish I had realized that sooner. With any website, there's going to be toxic and/or creepy people. I've seen hurtful things about lgbtq, autism, and even about my Comfort Characters. And if you don't know by now, they mean the world to me. Heck, I've had someone "fall in love" with me and they would just not. Leave. Me. Alone. But of course, there are the small positives. I love sharing my art, and getting input and reactions from people I don't know. I LOVE role-playing, and it's going to be something I miss most (I actually have two role-playing accounts, which might remain somewhat active for now). I love talking to others in my fandoms, people I don't usually meet at school. Plus, the support for being an LDS gay person... I didn't know that existed until I made this account. But as my birthday draws near... And my mental health is actually showing improvement... I can't do this anymore. I can't do this to my parents. I can't do this to my Comfort Characters. I can't do this to me. Goodbye
