vent+caps]]] BIG RANT/VENT rq It's tough to admit, but I think I might be struggling with hidden depression. I put on a brave face and act like everything is fine, but inside, I feel like I'm drowning. I don't want to burden anyone with my problems, so I keep it all to myself. It's like wearing a mask every day, pretending to be okay when I'm not. I'm scared to open up about it because I don't want to be judged or dismissed. I don't want to be judged or dismissed. I wish there was a way for people to understand that just because I'm not vocal about it doesn't mean I'm not silently struggling. Hidden depression refers to the experience of struggling with depressive symptoms while concealing them from others. People with hidden depression often mask their inner turmoil behind a facade of normalcy, appearing functional and composed on the outside while battling intense emotional pain and despair internally.This can make it incredibly challenging for others to recognize the signs of depression in these individuals, leading to feelings of isolation and a lack of support. Those with hidden depression may fear judgment, stigma, or even rejection if they were to reveal their true emotional state, causing them to suffer in silence. It's important to understand that hidden depression is a real and valid experience, and those affected by it deserve compassion and understanding. it also affects my friends cause they have to deal with me almost GATEKEEPING, us as a system [5and $ystem] , and my [undiagnosed] POTS [postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome]. i just feel horrible, but not emotionally I also feel like I have nothing to be sad about even though I do, I mean my ex has posted things that were NOT nice on the Internet, and my mom has yelled at me more than the last 2 years combined! Also, I always say I need help, but then I choose to say "I'm fine" or "It's probably just stress" I don't know I say sorry too much too! Furthermore, I make people and even MYSELF think I'm happy but just feel guilty. :'[ --- sorry for making you read this!! _________________________________________ Vent: I'm really struggling with my mom's constant yelling and my struggle with OSDD-1b and depression. It's like I'm caught in this never-ending cycle of feeling overwhelmed and hopeless. My mom's yelling just adds to the already heavy weight I'm carrying. It's like I can never catch a breath or find a moment of peace. I wish my mom could understand how her yelling affects me and how it exacerbates my mental health issues. Dealing with OSDD-1b and depression is already a daily battle, and having my mom's yelling on top of that feels like an extra burden I can't bear. I wish she could see that I'm doing the best I can, and I just need her to be patient and understanding with me. Instead, it feels like I'm always met with anger and frustration. I just need some understanding and support, but it feels like I'm always being pushed further into isolation. It's so hard to cope with everything when I feel like I have no one to turn to for comfort. I wish my mom could be a source of comfort for me instead of adding to my distress. ___________________________________________ caps//vent// im genuinely going insane like i am ticcing like crazy i probably have bipolar 1 i have to many people in my head i am dissociating like crazy. my mom is getting better barely my dad is leaving for 4 months soon to Arizona. but that means he cant defend me and i NEED him here i cant do this alone im going CRAZY and I CANT STOP IT also its so bad i cant cry it just so aaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh - Nyx+milo+ellie
caps]] Also this is the first time I have cried in a YEAR. At that time I had to go to a school psychologist EVERY WEEK I just feel horrible:'[ I'm gonna keep adding all of my vents here by the way thanx for ur support <3
