Hey... No one probably cares about what I write, so imma just vent here because I am too uncomfortable with venting to a friend. Okay, so. I was accepted into a very high-level school, and now I have gone through a quarter of the school year here. It's hard. I am horrible at chemistry because I have trouble memorizing when people speak, and my teacher constantly goes on these long and useless spiels about how he's helping us and I switch off and I have no idea when to switch back on. It feels like my friends don't care as much about me as I do about them, and my roommate hates me for no apparent reason. I really don't want to drop out because it feels like I am worthless and scared for going back to my old school. I want to start diy-ing my clothes into alt fashion, but I am too scared to mess up and so I just end up leaving things as is. I have so much homework this week, and I am just so stressed out from everything that has been going on. I am afraid of my friends leaving me. I want to be hugged and touched in a comforting sort of way, but I don't ask for it because I am scared that it will be even worse when that touch gets taken away. I want to make so much stuff and my mind is full of ideas, but when I try to flesh them out... I just get distracted or don't know what to do. Anyways... thanks if you got this far. You probably didn't though.
Artwork by me. Ocs: Red and Blue My interpretation of heaven, I guess. Music: Hide by Dorian Concept
