I had a dream. It was more of a nightmare. But they're always here. They aren't fake. They aren't toxic. But I do know; Those smiles are fake. I loved them. They were my only sustenance. So, as long as I was there, No one could hurt them. No one else deserves them. They need to care for themselves. If I knew it back then, would I do it again? No. No, I wouldn't. I caused problems before. I caused more now. Turns out, they needed me. I left them. It wasn't a dream. They were real friends. I don't think I was. They can get better now. I was the problem. I still am. The cliff was the only salvation.
<><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><> <><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><> What are you talking about?! I'm not mentally unstable...well not /that/ unstable. This was a little vent but was mainly based on Billie Eilish's song; Everything I wanted. NOT A SERIES! It's a oneshot for a reason. Whattt??? You wanna see me vent? If you don't, bye! Alr fine. Just a bit more. <><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><> I've been going through a lot and Billie Eilish's SAD songs are just a comfort to me sometimes. The thing is, when I'm in pain, I literally can't cry. I can cry at will, except when I actually want to cry. It hurts really bad because I don't really know how to express my words. Only tears. This started when I was 9, because my life just became so much harder then. I actually did become depressed, but I took pills and I think I'm better now. Thanks for all the support y'all always give me. My friends on here, are a very big motivation to still stay. On scratch, and on Earth. I love y'all. <><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><>
