just venting orejbw whatever it’s called to myselfff because a I am actually losing it and I know this is CRAZZY because I never ever talk about how I feel or anything because I find it weird and cringey and I don’t know to say what I feel without being weird? idk why but like idk I feel so weird because like I can’t make friends as easy as other people and it’s annoying and it’s annoying I can’t understand what people are talking about like slang words and I wish I knew how to because them maybe people would wanna be my friend idk and I also don’t know when I would use those types of words and I can’t even talk to people online because I scared that they will be judging me haha and I pretend I didn’t care that much when people didn’t like me but I actually do a lot lol. and people say “oh you just have to try” but I do and it doesn’t even do anything poop and I don’t like constantly being in two houses with people I know want me with them a lot and I wish that I wasn’t so stupid and mean to people when I don’t actually mean it grr and sometimes I wish people would stop bothering me with their own problems all the time i am just a human after all and I have a lot of my own problems and I don’t mind people venting and sharing stuff to me because it makes me feel important IG? and I like I care about other people but sometimes idk what to say and stuff. and I do my miss my family a lot even if I am with them I know that I’ll have to leave again soon eeeee I’m always so focused on like being there for other people that i forget to be there for myself I gues kinda cringey idk I’ve js been really anxious idk why and I never ever ever talk about how I feel because I find it cringey idk why so I’m actually forcing myself to post this even though I know no one will read it it just makes me feel a little bit better.
