I'm sorry if it seems like I became a totally different person. I'm sorry if there are times where it looks as if I'm not the same person anymore- and the truth is I'm not. That person died a long time ago and is buried deep beneath snow. Living with pain changes you, its exhausting. Every morning I wake up and its like I go to war, with anybody, with myself with my mind, with the world around me. everyday is a fight to keep my life normal while also fighting negativity of my own mind and the fear of losing the people I hold close. i try to stay positive, if not for myself, for the people around who need it most, but all I want to do right now is lose the fight.
I'm sorry to @itscornchips and @TheJakecalledCat I didn't mean to hurt you guys..
