its goodbye </3

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this project used to be called “its not goodbye, its see you later" but now its goodbye. this project was officially first shared on November 2nd 2024. 329 people saw me leave, it was a whole thing and I was happy. Then for some inexplicable reason, I decided to come back. Probably for the friends <3. I was semi-active for a few weeks, and it was fun reconnecting with the people I missed. But now honestly, I’m remembering why I left. And once you leave, you’re supposed to leave. Final. Especially after 300+ people see that and all your friends think and know you left. And being honest? It’s so frustrating that so many people @p-paris @Amyyy13 @ev3rmore- and @feelin22- can all leave and be happy without scratch, and i’m acting like i can’t? I came back. I had the BEST time on scratch ever. I enjoyed scratch fully, I had so much fun, met so many people, made so many memories. But my time here is up and I’m ready to leave. This is going to be long. oh boy reflection: some of my best memories were when I first created the gorg gang. I loved it I loved the idea I loved the people I loved the comn. And it’s now one of the most active studios that I’m in that’s been running for 2 years I think. Wow. Secondly, I loved my friends with all my heart. They were always there for me, so sweet and there’s a few people I’ll always remain in touch with. The ogs who remember @ReefOctopus(my very first acc) i love you guys, you all are real ones. My other accs include @The_Blue_Hibiscus, @-ocexn_coral- @Banners-by-nia and a few secret ones. I’ve never ever been banned before, and I’ve never received a ban warning. pretty surprising considering all things all in all, scratch was amazing. i loved being in my scratch prime, getting over 50 messages everyday from friends, and uselessly creating projs. but not anymore. i’m leaving scratch again for so many reasons. last time i left it was because of school, the uselessness of scratch, and how worthless i felt. this time the reasons are different. last time i left because i had some problems with IRL friends making fun of me for this acc and talking bad about me behind my back. i felt ganged up on. i was scared, i was frightened, bad things came to pass and out of fear i started going ia. My downfall in scratch was slow at that time, until i released a leaving proj and left. another major reason: all my friends all the ogs, the comm i knew left. and the comn broke and so did I. Now im leaving because of these following things, not out of fear but out of love. ) time-waste time is precious, and there’s so many things I could be doing with the time spent of scratch. sometimes i feel so pressured to comment in certain studios so i dont get removed (not the gg <3 ilygs yes im biased) or talk to this person so they don’t forget me. but i shouldn’t feel this way, and I shouldn’t feel threatened that people will forget me. I’ve made my peace, and I’m happy with my friends to the point where I don’t feel that insecure anymore. one example is when I recently joined an invite only studio full of people i idolized <3 the studio was great and everything but the problem was how i was trying to get closer and make friends with these amazing scratchers so i could be in my prime again. but that time has passed, and i no longer want to keep making an effort to be popular on scratch anymore. its tiring its exhausting and im done and I'm not that person anymore. ) How trivial scratch is A few years ago, scratch seemed like the biggest deal. The drama was scandalous, and it was always gnawing on my mind back them. I thought it was the most important, crazy thing out there. Jess (rip august 18th) impersonating my friend’s acc seemed like the biggest deal ever. but respectfully i dont even care anymore. okay someone else has a similar account out there, but if you’ve established its not you, then what’s the point of dragging it out? Drama on scratch is so pointless i swear it’s ragebait. doesn’t deserve half the attention it gets, its just (sorry if this is you) people wanting attention, and it takes too much effort to give it to them, so im leaving. problem is, when there’s drama EVERYONE’S onto it so i feel a responsibility to join in too, even though i shouldn’t have to. ) others I have a ton of stuff going on irl that deserve more attention. There’s great stuff and there’s horrible stuff and I’m working through it. Rn one of my pets is really old and having a really hard time, and I want to be there for her </3 i want to spend time with fam +friends too. My p1n is you guys can message me there if you want to kit <3 i already have a ton of friends on there so this doesn’t hurt as much. Of course there’s so many people i dont have (lyla im talking to you :sob) and i’ll check in once in a while to talk to them i’ve left before, but now i’m leaving again. for good. but this time i’m leaving with a smile on my face ily