I think I'm done, I don't think I can handle it anymore. Just why? Why was I the one picked to be tortured? Was I meant to be this way? Is my PURPOSE to suffer?- Is that what I'm made for? I can't endure. And it hurts, so so so much it hurts. A chance to let my pain out is rare at best. I can't on here, I've tried it before and all it results in is major effort being wasted, even when I'm careful. I have a therapist! For anybody who wants to call me out, tell me to go get some help... I've been trying! It's not as easy as you make it sound. I crave touch, my body feels empty and I crave touch. I don't care if it's affectionate or abusive, either way, I crave touch. I thought it was getting better... I guess not-
