This is gonna be a long one (kinda) so only read if you want to! So, lemme start by saying that these days Ive been really sad and emotional because of friendships, and I try my best to not be, but it really does affect me. Sometimes I'm fine but no matter when, I feel like everything is messy, just all jumbled up and mixed around. So, Ive had this bestie called A, and we became close 2 years ago. However, last year, this girl joined us, and I orginally didnt like her. Now, A also had another bestie, H. H one day told me that A has said mean things abt me behind my back and she also sent the screenshots. turns out A had said I hate Anya (me) all because i took inspo. I decided to confront A, and I was really dissapointed. We didn't talk for a few days, until one day she asked to make peace. I agreed. (Btw, i went to her house the day before I saw the screenshots) however, I did npt sit w her for recess for awhile and sat wth C, because I liked her again. Now, C comforted me abt the issue and we were getting really close. Since everything felt so messy, I kept talking abt the A issue, and I sat w C and her friend G. I noticed C was becoming distant. The next day, she sent me a msg saying that she felt that I was barging in and always talking abt my problems. I was sad, and I asked her if we would ever be so close again and she said she wasnt sure. I cried over this ;-) I ranted abt this to my friend k and then found out K also talked bad abt me. she said that I expected C to help me (C said she would be there for me) when I hated C before. However, K also hated C before and now they are kinda besties. I also found out that on one day where i was feeling left out and sitting in clas alone, A aksed C if I was okay and invited me to play w her. So, idk, should I become friends w A again? but not besties? I hope you guys get what im talking about T-T im going to a new school soon.. Will all this clear up? because now everything is all messy.
