i dont know what do do anymore. i cant anymore. i used to be a nice person with friends, and now ive turned into this loathing, hurting monster. my heart wants to stop, but my brain pushes me to keep hurting ppl, to keep copying ppl. and i need to stop. its like i have to copy ppl to get my way. and thats not true. its disguisting. i always think that if i copy ppl, ppl will like me. like HOW do all these amazing ppl do all this stuff and get friends and be all nice and make incredible banners and im here imp3rsonating ppl in order to get my way!?? well, the answer is, J3ALOUSY. its all just jealousy. and i need to stop. im so jealous of these amazing scratchers. ive lost originality, kindness,and creativity. i now have copying, hurting, s!abbing ppl in the back, and i need help. im full of guilt. guilt. i need help. i genuinely recognise what i have done. this is the last straw. i know what i did. countless ppl hurt. i am fuul og guilt, and i need help. but ik nobody will help me. this is the truth. the answer is all just jealousy. adding more when i finish crying.
